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Surprise Chapter from Stand

Hey, everyone, since I wasn’t able to publish Stand this year, I’ve decided to share another chapter from the book in hopes of somewhat making up for it. Here’s to a release date in 2025! Enjoy!

            My heart was fluttering in my chest like a butterfly on crack. I hadn’t been this nervous since my own damn wedding. I felt absolutely ridiculous standing in this obnoxious gown next to Darren in the elevator while he exuded his usual calm and collected demeanor in a custom-fitted black-on-black tux.

            I tried not to trip on the shimmering floor-length emerald chiffon that wrapped high around my throat, conveniently concealing the fading bruises. The sheer glittery sleeves stretched down to my wrists, intricate dark green lace beading cleverly placed to hide my brands of ownership. The sweetheart cutout teased a tasteful amount of cleavage while the bustier cinched too tightly at my waist.

Or maybe it was just my own panic that was making it difficult to breath.

            “Jaden.”

            “Huh?” I nearly snapped, my stupid dangle emerald earrings swinging against my jawline.

            “You need to relax. It’s a charity gala. Not a firing squad.”

            I exhaled harshly. “Give it time,” I murmured back.

No one said it couldn’t morph into one.

Darren paused for a moment, cocking his head to the side and turned to me. “I’m sorry, but didn’t you just not so long ago take on an entire security team of at least ten men and blow up their entire storage facility?”

My blood rushed at the memory. God, that felt like forever ago now.

“Yeah, I did that,” I replied with a reassuring nod.

He smiled snidely. “Then I think you can handle this.”

“I just feel ridiculous.”

Darren gazed down at me from the corner of his eye, the snideness of his grin morphing into something warm and almost pleasant.

“But you look so damn beautiful.”  

And then the elevator doors opened and the chaos commenced.

There were swarms of people everywhere. Colorful gowns flowed in all directions, men in expensive suits and tuxes, noise and chatter mixed with glasses clinking. There was so much to pay attention to, my situational awareness going into overdrive to assess for threats and potential exits. But then a large warm hand grasped my own and suddenly I remembered to breathe.

The first exhale was all the relief Darren waited for before tugging me along to the bar and ordering me a glass of champagne and a bourbon for himself. A shot of tequila would have been more appreciated, but I accepted the glass with a long discrete sip. My eyes glazed over the crowd, finding Scott, Clive, and Owen drifting along the outskirts, popping in and out of my peripherals, but never far.

“Better?” Darren asked, as he leaned casually against the bar, bringing the glass to his lips.

 “Yes, thank you,” I answered after my third sip, but my voice was not convincing.

Darren chuckled. “What could you possibly be afraid of here?”

My eyes bounced up to his.

You… Always you.

I shrugged my shoulders. “I don’t know, and I think that’s the problem. I feel unprepared.”

“Unprepared to do what? Behave and look pretty? So far, you’ve done a phenomenal job of at least one of them,” he said, and then his eyes darkened. “I don’t expect you to require additional motivation to achieve the other, but you’re already well aware I won’t hesitate to provide it if I think otherwise.”

I scowled at his unnecessary threat, but then immediately trained myself to soften it, not wanting to attract attention. I didn’t want to think of the things he would provide to motivate my behavior, especially knowing how much he would enjoy it. I decided to swallow my anxiety down with the rest of my champagne, hoping it would make things marginally better.  

But it wasn’t better. If only champagne could act as a decent pain killer than the meds I took earlier for the inflammation in my hip. All that dancing and fucking the night before had really done a number on me, which in comparison to everything else I’d been through was pretty pathetic. But it was what it was.

Allowing my eyes to travel, they followed the sound of smooth yet rhythmic classical music being played by some incredibly skilled musicians, setting the scene for a soft evening. Couples twirled along the dance floor, moving in rhythm with the music.

What was this charity even for?

Darren cut my assessment short when he took my empty glass and placed it next to his on the bar. Taking my hand, he brought it up to his mouth and gently kissed my knuckles, his sensual dark blues locking with mine.

“Dance with me,” he said, a knowing smile curving his lips. It naturally wasn’t a request

Ugh.

“Did we not just learn a valuable lesson last night about my dancing?” I chided as I pointlessly tried to pull my hand back. He kept it trapped in his own, but lowered it to a more comfortable height. “I don’t want to cause another distraction.”

Darren smirked as he glanced down at my left hand, fingering my weddings rings. The same ones I had to scrub with a spare toothbrush last night to get all the dried blood out from between the stones.

“As long as you’re dancing with me, I’ll allow it,” he stated, swinging his heated gaze back up to mine.

Darren didn’t wait for a response as he took my hand, wrapped it around his arm, and lead me to the dance floor. I felt my nerves grate as my heels clicked on the hard surface, and I suddenly realized why this was so jarring. The dress I was wearing, with sleeves long enough to cover my wrist tattoos. The embellished fabric around my throat to conceal the bruises from Darren’s hand when he almost strangled me to death nearly a week ago. My hair and makeup professionally done. All of it added for one single purpose – to enhance the performance.

While this was a private event, and I got the impression that it catered to a much less “unlawful” crowd, people who were actually legitimate and didn’t secretly run criminal trafficking empires behind closed doors. And yet here we were, about to literally waltz right in like we actually belonged here. Like Darren was one of them. And it told me that even he was not immune to the required performances of society if he wanted to maintain an upstanding appearance outside of the criminal underworld he ruled.

The wolf in sheep’s clothing.

As we approached the dance floor, I recognized the song they started playing, the pretty strings of Aurora by Lindsey Stirling playing in the background. I had a playlist of just her music that I loved to swing my bō to, the flow of everything so damn relaxing I could go on for hours without even noticing.

Quietly releasing a deep breath, I allowed Darren to pull my body into his and immersed myself into the performance alongside a dozen other dancing couples. Smooth as water, he twirled me around the dance floor like he was made for it. He moved with a practiced ease, allowing me to follow his lead without effort or strain. Even in the three-inch heels that barely allowed me to see over his shoulder, I glided over the floor without missing a beat. My body was automatically in tune with his, easily matching his pace and rhythm despite the dull ache in my hip. For one small moment, I actually forgot about the performance and willingly spiraled away into whatever direction he chose to spin me.

When the song ended, the room stopped, an applause replacing the music as Darren twirled me for the last time and then pulled me into his chest. The clapping continued long after we stopped, and as I looked over, I noticed too many faces focused intently on us instead of the musicians.

“Why are they staring at us?” I asked quietly, nervous of the sudden attention.

“They’re staring at you,” Darren answered, almost smugly.

I frowned, glancing up at him. “What? Why?”

A warm grin curled up his lips. “When you look and move the way you do, how could they not?” He said it like he understood the compulsion, like he could actually sympathize with someone for once.

But they couldn’t just be staring at me. My gaze quickly hunted for my convictions, hoping he had to be wrong. And he was, catching the hungry looks of some of the other women in the crowd as they sized Darren up. And not so subtly either.

If they only knew.

Darren leaned down so that his mouth was touching my ear. “They’re all fantasizing about you right now, and I have half a mind to lay you out on this floor so they can watch me fuck you until you’re screaming my name and coming all over my cock.” His words made me suck in a breath, anxiously holding it to avoid reacting. “By the time I’m done, there would be no doubts left in their minds that you’re fucking mine.”  

Without pause, he wrapped his hand around the back of my neck and kissed me like he was starving. His threatening words left a shiver down my spine that made me hunch from the chill, my stomach clenching with apprehension. It wouldn’t be the first time he fucked me in public, but it would be the first time with an actual audience.

When he finally pulled back, I could feel my lips swelling from the harsh flavor of his obsession, the taste of possession still lingering on my tongue. His lips on mine had broadcasted a very clear message for all who could see, that we were both very much claimed by the other. And clearly it was enough to make everyone around us blush uncomfortably. Thankfully, the musicians picked up their next song, causing the other couples surrounding us to start moving again, though some of them didn’t know how to focus on their own dancing partner. 

I cursed under my breath. “I thought I told you I didn’t want to cause a distraction,” I grumbled quietly, then stepped back to flee. I had actually meant that part. But naturally, Darren wouldn’t let me, refusing to allow me even an inch in the other direction as he tightened his grip on my body.

“You can distract them all you want, princess,” he snickered. “As long as they understand I’ll kill them if they’re caught staring for too long.”

God, I wanted to roll my eyes.

“Then I suppose we should stop tempting them, don’t you think?” I whispered impatiently. “Unless you want to prove me right about the firing squad.”

A grin curved up Darren’s face as he chuckled softly. “Come on,” he teased, releasing his grip and ushered me off the dance floor.

Placing his arm around my waist, Darren led me back to the bar so we could get another drink and then headed to our table. But as he steered me through the crowd, I was surprised at the amount of times we had to stop so he could chat with the people ignorant enough to approach him. Or maybe they were secretly just like him, likewise hiding in sheep’s clothing so as not to disturb the innocent flock around them.

 A few of the faces were recognizable, but the conversations were completely irrelevant, mostly small talk, legal business, and compliments of my hair color from other women. Sometimes the conversations weren’t even in English.

But I played my part as the perfect wife, speaking only when spoken to and very little, smiling when appropriate while Darren kept me nearly glued to his side. His arm was like solid steel around my waist, affording me zero chances to slip away, even if I wanted to.

I could tell he wasn’t interested in a single word spoken. His demeanor was more cordial than usual, but still just as relaxed. He was effortless in his agenda, passing through conversation after conversation, each person totally bewitched by him, completely oblivious to the cold and callous killer he actually was. It was almost sickening to watch, a true Oscar worthy performance. I was thankful when the charade finally ended as we sat down at our table closest to the stage.

It wasn’t two minutes later when a mic was tapped. “Ladies and gentlemen, would you please take your seats, we are about to begin.”

Sounds of shuffling ensued as people moved to their tables, voices dying down as a woman stepped up to the podium at the center of the stage.

“Good evening, everyone!” she said enthusiastically, a wide bright smile plastered across her face. “Welcome to the 7th annual charity event for Hope After Human Trafficking.”

My blood froze in my veins, stiffening my entire body as my brain registered what had just been said. My tongue was suddenly dry and thick, my stomach caving in on itself while my heart battled for release from my chest. Panic was imminent.

I don’t know how well I contained the horror in my eyes, but when I looked over at Darren, all I could feel was a familiar bucket of ice drenching my body. The sly knowing look on his face was a warning and a challenge to keep my shit together or there would be consequences. But the little hamster running from wheel to wheel inside my brain wasn’t concerned with the consequences. It was too busy being confused over what the fuck was going on. How it was possible we were even here.

How the fuck did one of the biggest benefactors of human trafficking attend a charity event meant to help survivors from his very own influence? I was beside myself. Angered that I had once again been tricked into enduring another trigger for my PTSD over an event that was nothing but a cruel joke to him.

I was confused as to why he would even put himself in such a vulnerable position and make himself so well known here. And then disappointed in the fact that he still felt the need to torture me like this with at least a hundred other people around to unknowingly witness it.

I couldn’t even focus on the presenter’s speech until I suddenly felt the lights single in on our table.

“And a special thank you to our top benefactor, Mr. Darren Davis, for once again hosting this event at his magnificent grand hotel. You are truly one of a kind.”

Oh, my God, I’m gonna throw up.

Darren smiled, raised his glass, nodding at the crowd as they applauded him. Fucking applauded. I don’t know how I managed not to stab him with all the spoons and butter knives on the table in front of everyone, but it was a strength meant for Zeus.

There would be words later. More than words. Fists, and blood, and probably a lamp or two. Squaring my shoulders, I released a slow deep breath, promising myself I would hurl the very first thing I could touch at his head as soon as we got back to our hotel room.

Noticing my reprieve, Darren leaned into my ear.

“That was a brilliant performance, my little queen. Very well done.” God, the cockiness in his voice was enough to get me to smile back just the same.

“Just wait till later,” I whispered back.

“Oh, I’m looking forward to it.”

The rest of the event was spent biting the inside of my cheek until the only thing I could taste was champagne and blood. Every word spoken by each speaker held me captive in my seat – the stories of survivors, the success of the charity, the impact it had made funding rescue operations against human traffickers across the country. There were lawyers, doctors, judges, police officers, social workers, and even federal agents, all offering their insight about the vast industry of human trafficking.

I learned a lot more that night than I ever thought I would about the subject. One of the saddest things was learning that most trafficking situations were run by the people who knew their victims. Parents exploiting their children, boyfriends manipulating their girlfriends with false love that eventually turned to violence. Young, impressionable runaways, girls with debilitating insecurities, the impoverished, hopeless drug addicts, the woefully naive – all things traffickers used against them to coax their victims into a false sense of trust until they were completely trapped.

Aside from the parents selling their kids, which was just unconscionable, the lover boy method was probably one of the most heinous forms of entrapment. Pretending to be the loving, doting boyfriend in an effort to get your victim to fall for you, and then manipulating them into sleeping with other men for money. It was a dwindling practice since it seemed to be less effective, but the alternative was always blackmail or violence. Imagine the sorrow of betrayal when you realized the person you loved, who you thought loved you back, who you trusted, was just using you the entire time. And now it was too late to get out. 

As awful as Darren’s industry practice was, I was glad to know it accounted for not even a full .001% of human trafficking. The kinds of auctions he held were either damn near incomparable, or they flew so far under the radar that they were practically fiction. No wonder his auctions were so profitable. His competition barely existed, at least in the United States. Or maybe it was because he made sure to snuff out anyone who thought to compete against him. I wouldn’t put it past him.

Even with all the horrific stories of the survivors, their fight for freedom was inspiring, and it almost brought me hope – until the moment reality kissed me on the cheek and reminded me that even with all their work, Darren was still here, thriving in spite of it all. And I fucking hated him for it.

Dinner was difficult to sit through, the food turning sour in my stomach as I fought through each bite. Our dinner companions eyed my half-eaten plates, practically praising me for my “small stomach” and bird-like eating habit. Pacifying them was easy, but I knew Darren could see right through me.

The longer the night went on, the crueler it felt. So many survivors talked of freedom, the moment they were able to live their lives as humans instead of slaves. It was like dangling a carrot in front of me that I could never reach. They had escaped and survived, and I was still just presently surviving.

My fists bunched under the table, but I swore to myself my time would come. It would come just as theirs had come. But when my time finally came, it would bring the reckoning Darren’s world unquestionably deserved.

The last speaker of the night was a young woman, most likely in her late twenties. She was a frail looking thing – very pale with dark brown hair. Yet her voice was strong, steady, and assured. But as she spoke, the contents of her story became familiar, and it shook me to my core.

The memory of waking up in a dog kennel, with no clothes and no idea how she got there. Being unknowingly auctioned off and then finding herself in the backseat of a van, bound for who the hell knew until she suddenly woke up in Mexico. She’d spent the next three years of her life down there until her captors mistakenly believed she had died from a drug overdose. She’d been left for dead in a fucking dumpster.

I couldn’t stop by body from shaking, the tremors so strong I looked like I was shivering. Darren seized the opportunity to wrap his hands around my bare shoulders, the warmth of his skin soothing the tremors, but did nothing for the knots in my stomach. And just when I thought I couldn’t handle another second, her eyes suddenly caught mine, and then shifted two inches over. Her face quickly went white, her words stopping midsentence, as she stared at the man beside me.

My heart stopped.

She fucking recognized him.

It hit me like a ton of bricks, watching her recognize her trafficker in the middle of a speech, in front of dozens of people, during a human trafficking charity gala.

Her silence went on for several awkward seconds until words finally stumbled out of her mouth in an attempt to regain her composure. But there would be no recovery. She finished quickly, apologized, and then rushed off the stage, disappearing behind the curtain.

My eyes immediately caught the predatory determination that hardened Darren’s face. A single nod to Scott off in the distance was enough to put the man into action, igniting a whole new set of fears in my core.

“No,” I whispered pleadingly, placing my hand on his arm, hoping to gain his attention. But a single warning glare from him was all it took for me to reluctantly remove my offending hand, but still I tried. “Please.”

Taking my arm in his hand, he gripped it tightly, causing me to wince as he leaned in to my ear. “Behave,” he warned, his voice so deadly serious it almost made me sick with terror.

What was he going to do?

“Ladies and gentlemen, that concludes our evening. We once again want to thank you…”

My mind couldn’t focus anymore, too busy doing backflips on how to prevent Darren from going after this poor girl, but I never even got the chance to try. He was gone before I knew it, completely disappearing like the shadow he was. I stood from my seat, my eyes hunting every square inch of the room for him like I might have some hope of stopping him.

And then Clive and Owen came for me.

“Time to go,” Owen said soberly.

Swallowing back the dread coating my mouth, I stepped away from the table with shaky knees and allowed them to escort me back to the private elevator. The second the doors closed on us, I lost my breath.

“He’s going to kill that girl.”

They said nothing. The panic rose.

“I can’t,” I inhaled. “I can’t let him do this.” I started to fucking shake.

Both of them turned their heads to eye me over their shoulders.

“Don’t make me sedate you,” Clive threatened.

Desperation burst into fury.

“Goddamn it, fuck both of you! I can’t–”

“What are you gonna do, huh?” Owen started, turning around to crowd me in the small space. “Follow him? Barge in and physically stop him? You know damn well the outcome of that.”

“I don’t care. I could warn her–“  

“You’re too late. She’s already been tagged. Now, let it go.”

The elevator doors opened to our floor and instead of waiting for me to follow, they both took hold of my elbows and pulled me into the suite, releasing me only when I was back inside the bedroom.

“Stay in here and behave,” Clive warned. “Test me once and you’re out for the night.” And then he shut the door, locking me in.

“You fucking bitches!” I shouted back, kicking my heels off into the door. “I want my fucking dog!”

Camaro was still with the staff who tended to her when she couldn’t be with me. Now would be a good fucking time to bring me my emotional support boss into the room.

Moving to the dresser, I yanked at the back of my dress, searching for the fucking zipper so I could finally get out of the wretched thing. I tore at the fabric, taking my frustrations out on the ridiculous gown until it was a mess of ribbons on the floor.

But it satisfied nothing.

Pulling at the drawers, I searched until I found one of my workout skorts and a tank top, and dressed myself in a mad rage. And then I paced along the room for what felt like hours until my shoulders hurt from the tension.

Maybe it was better if I was sedated.

At least then I wouldn’t have to feel like this. Helpless. Weak. Useless. Again.

I felt sick knowing I was tied to a man that was having an innocent woman killed somewhere in this very moment.

Marching my ass to the window, I ripped the curtains open, ready to yank the door wall open and step out for fresh air. Until I heard Clive yell from the living room.

“Jaden! I swear to God, if you open that door!”

I leaned my forehead against the glass in defeat and exhaled my grief.

Motherfucker. I could just kill them both, right?

And then I realized Camaro still hadn’t been returned to me.

“Where the fuck is my dog!” I shouted in return, wondering why they still hadn’t brought her to me.

My thoughts of turmoil and murder were then immediately interrupted when the power went out. All the lights in the room went dark, as did the light from outside the door. Glancing back toward the window, I could see the rest of the hotel was still lit, so it was only our area. That was a bad sign.

Moving quietly toward the bedroom door, I listened for any sound, but could hear nothing. The silence lasted for too long, making me grab for the butterfly knife I’d hidden in my luggage. Crouching again by the door, I could hear a commotion coming closer, the sounds of fighting and scuffling getting louder. And then whatever the fight was clashed against the door until it finally gave way and Owen crashed into a man beneath him, his fist raised in the air.

“Jaden, run!” he shouted as he began to strike the guy in the face several times. He looked like he had it covered so I made a dash for the living room only to get tackled to the floor. Pain spasmed through my hip and down into my leg, but the surge of adrenaline gave me the distraction I needed to focus on my attacker.

Using the momentum, I curled in and rolled as best I could, keeping my feet tucked in, and then immediately kicking them out when I had the chance. My bare feet found hips and then pushed as hard as I could, throwing the person off me, giving me enough time to get to my feet, and shove my butterfly knife right through his Adam’s apple.

All around me, fighting ensued. From the corner of my eye, Clive looked like he was losing his fight with another guy while Owen was still combatting with another.

Where were the hell were the rest of the guards?

A fist came into my peripherals, nearly missing my jaw as I ducked out of the way, countering with a swipe of my knife, cutting through air. Pushing my loose hair from my face, I caught the sight of a polished white grin looking back at me. It definitely needed some blood coating those teeth.

“The fuck are you smiling at,” I said, lifting my leg to kick him in the face. He dodged the kick, but not the strike to his throat. Coughing and sputtering, he stumbled back clutching his neck until he collapsed to the ground. But before I had the chance for a single breath, another gunmen tried to pistol whip me across the face. I fell back, twisting out of the way while kicking my leg out just in time to catch his jaw with my heel.  

A sudden prick to my skin caught my attention, my adrenaline spiking even more upon seeing a small dart sticking out of my arm. My body went limp.

“Son of a…”

Fuck.

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End of 2024 Update

Wow, its been a long time since I’ve posted an update. Time certainly flies when you’re a new mom lol. My daughter is now 7 months old and I can’t believe its already been that long. And as much as I’ve been enjoying every second with my baby girl, I have still been very committed to finishing Stand. And I’m happy to report that the first draft is finally finished and currently in the hands of my editor as we speak. The word count is now over 250k, so I have no idea how long it’s going to take my editor to get through all that, but I imagine it won’t be overnight. Once I get the revised draft back from her, I’ll do a full read through and make my final revisions, then it’s off to the beta readers. I’m still not committing to a release date yet because I honestly thought I’d be able to get this thing out this year, but unfortunately I wasn’t able to do it. Probably has something to do with the fact that I can’t stop staring at my kid because she’s so damn cute lol.

I also finally set up a PO Box since some of my readers had been asking for one in the facebook group. The address if PO Box 86, Troy, MI 48099-9998.

So that’s pretty much it for right now. I hope everyone has a nice and safe holiday this year and I will see you all in 2025!

<3 Jay Marie

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Spring Update

Hi, all. I know it’s been too long since I’ve posted an update, but a lot has been going on lately that’s been taking up much of my time. I had a baby! On May 16th, I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl via unplanned c section after about 17 hours of unsuccessful labor. It was a rough day, but we’re both doing well, her so much better than me. She’s the most adorable little thing I’ve ever seen and she is absolutely thriving. She also sleeps like 18 hours a day, so there’s still plenty of time for me to get some writing done in between naps and all the pumping I’ve been doing lol.

Stand is currently 230,000 words and I am just a two chapters away from finally finishing the first draft. After that, it’s the two epilogues, and then the first draft is done! I still can’t commit to a release date yet, but I’m getting so much closer to it. I’m really happy with how the book has progressed and I think you guys will really enjoy it. Plus, there’s so much more to read than ever before so I’ll honestly be shocked if anyone finishes it in a single setting lol.

So that’s where I’m at right now. I will try to keep you guys updated on here now that my pregnancy is finally over and I have a very sleepy newborn on my hands lol.

Thank you still for your support and incredible patience.

<3 Jay Marie

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End of Fall Update

Hey, everyone, I’m just dropping a quick update on what’s going on with Stand. It’s now currently 173,000 words. I was actually wrong in my last post. Strike was actually 183,000 words, not 163,000 like I originally thought. But regardless, I’m getting a lot closer to writing the end. I’m thinking I have another 15k words to go before it might be finished. Unfortunately I got hit with a bit of a snag back in early October when I stepped out for a short trip to Vegas and came back with Covid. And it knocked me off my ass for a good two weeks. I’ve had Covid once before and that was a breeze compared to this round. Then there was a lot of catching up with work and life in general. There’s another big update going on with my life right now too, but I’m just not quite ready to reveal that just yet.

Any way, I’m hoping to have the first draft done and to my editor before the end of the year. Once I get it back from her, I’ll do my revisions and a final read, then I’ll start recruiting a few beta readers to sniff out any kinks and get an authentic response to the book. Then I’ll make my final touches, distribute the ARCs and set it up for pre-order. I don’t expect to have to do too much revising since I’ve been doing a lot of that already this whole time.

So, that’s what’s going on. I know the waiting sucks, but unfortunately, I’m not a full time author and only do this on the side for fun, so there’s only so much time I can spare between work and life’s obligations. But I’m doing the best that I can without turning this whole thing into a job and ruining the fun of writing for myself.

Thanks again for your continued patience and I can’t tell you guys how excited I am for you to finally sink your teeth into this book!

<3 Jay Marie

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End of Summer Update

Stand is now over 150,000 words and still going strong. For reference, Strike was 163,000. And in all honesty, I think Stand is going to be longer. I’m currently 2/3 of the way through the first draft, and every time I think I’m satisfied with something I go back and add more and make it even better. There’s so much going into this book because it’s the last one. And believe me, it is THE LAST ONE. So if the book has to be extra long to wrap everything up to my satisfaction then that’s what’s going to happen.

As far as a timeline goes, I still can’t guarantee anything, but I will admit that I have booked with my editor for the end of October, so hopefully I’ll have the first draft done by then. If not, then I’ll be sending her what I have and just go from there. I can’t imagine not making the deadline since all I do now is work on this book. I come home from work and literally do nothing else. I don’t clean my house. I don’t work out. I’ve barely touched my laundry. And I get so anxious when anything interrupts my writing time because it’s all I want to do. Thank God I don’t have kids, otherwise this would be a nightmare.

My goal is to get this beast out before the end of the year, but you never know what life might throw at me. But I have to say, I’m really loving how everything is turning out so far. I expect to start working on the ending in the next couple of weeks.

In the mean time, if anyone wants to stay in touch with the most recent updates then I suggest joining my facebook group where I post teasers every now and then and answer questions. https://www.facebook.com/groups/142059833103253

As always, your patience is appreciated while I close out this final chapter. It’s been a hell of a run.

<3 Jay Marie

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Stand Teaser

I don’t usually post teasers on my blog, but I think this one deserves a place on the fridge. Enjoy.

Darren

The soft sound of steady, rhythmic breathing cascaded across my skin, flowing gently into my ears like a delicate sonata. It pained me to admit that such a sweet sound could calm my undying rage. A remedy to swiftly lull me into a sense of tranquility unmatched by any others. But it was only due to the source of that sound.

            Warmth filled my chest as I stared down through the bars of the metal cage that contained my most prized possession. The pale skin of her naked body contrasted so beautifully with the purple bruises marking her under my brutal touch. Her chest slowly rose and fell, drawing my eyes to her hardened nipples that had peaked out from behind her slender arms. She’d been clutching her chest all night to keep herself warm, but eventually she learned to sleep through the shivers I purposely plagued her with. My beautiful, adaptable little soldier.

            Glossy strands of red hair had fallen over her angelic face, only poorly shielding her from my gaze. I suddenly had an urge to run my fingers through it, relishing the softness before wrapping it tightly around my hand like a leash.

And she’d love me for it. Because that was who she was now. My toy. My doll. My little puppet. Just waiting for me to play with her.  

           In a matter of weeks, I’d successfully managed to reduce Jaden to nothing more than a sweet little pet.

It took patience, time, and so much discipline, but eventually everybody breaks. Even the strongest of us. I’d warned her of the inevitable so long ago when I’d had her dangling from those chains, fighting me with everything she had, still believing she had a choice. Back when she was still just a dollar sign at the warehouse.

And while I had broken her, the little spitfire had also successfully broken me.

For the first time in my life, I found myself alarmingly obsessed. To such a disturbing degree that I would compromise my own sanity and relentlessly fixate until my mind was so damn distracted I could focus on nothing else but her. I’d never wanted anything with such an intense urgency before in my life. This tiny sprig of a girl had consumed me entirely, mind, body, and soul, and there was no escaping her. I was well and truly gone, tortured by a prize that had grabbed my soul by the throat and ruthlessly claimed it.

The strength of my obsession was unrivaled, and even when I’d finally acted and taken her, it did nothing to dull the flame. It just grew and grew until the blazing inferno threatened to burn us both to the ground. The lengths I would go for this woman – to keep her in my grasp and under my control – was boundless. There couldn’t have been a deadlier fixation.  

Jaden was mine. And to my detriment…I was hers.

Stand: 93,500 words

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First Update of 2023

Well, here we are in year 2023. I know the only thing that’s on everyone’s mind is when Stand will come out. And the truth is, I still don’t know. I’m at about 90,000 words so I would say I’m somewhere around the halfway mark of the first draft. I’m almost finished connecting the beginning to the middle, then I need to finish the other half of the middle, and then write the ending. So far, I’m really liking where it’s going. It took me a while to warm up to it but now that I’ve got a good momentum, I’m able to carry it better than I did before. There’s still lots left to do, but I’m enjoying the progress. Writing this one is hard because I’m writing the end of these characters and their stories, so it’s like I’m saying goodbye to them in a way. Sometimes it’s difficult to let go and walk away, but I hope that when I do, it will be with the satisfaction of a great story.

Just an FYI for some, I do not frequent Goodreads. Like at all. That place is probably the most toxic website for authors and I just don’t feel the need to engage with people who call me an ungrateful bitch or accuse me of stringing them along for money. I’m a lawyer and I do very well for myself. There’s no need to string people along for financial gain when I barely make anything from my sales anyway. If I was in it for the money, I’d advertise a hell of a lot more than I do, which is basically zero. I write because it’s what I love to do. Not because I need the income. Not because of the attention. But because I enjoy it. There is no other reason. So I really hope people start taking that into consideration the next time they want to wish me misfortune because I didn’t update a particular site or didn’t write a book fast enough to their satisfaction.

I don’t update my website as much as I probably should but I post updates in my readers group on Facebook a lot more often. I just posted a teaser from Stand on there a few days ago.

Anyway, that’s what’s been going on. As always, your patience and support is appreciated.

Much loves,

<3 Jay Marie

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Late Update

Yikes, it’s been a while since I’ve made an update on here. Well, here’s what’s been going on. Ya girl passed the bar exam and is now officially working as a lawyer. Yay me! Will that take away some time from working on Stand? Yes, but I don’t think it will affect my pace as much as you think. Stand is currently over 57,000 words, but nowhere near close to finished. The other books came out to about 250,000 words, but for some reason I don’t think Stand is going to be as long. No release date yet, and there won’t be one for a long time. I’m trying really hard to keep my writing process from being a chore, otherwise I just won’t enjoy writing it and it will suck the creativity right out of me. So I’m taking my time, writing when inspiration hits and putting my best forward. I know it’s tough, but trust me, a lot of good shit is coming in this book and it will be worth it.

As always, your patience and support is greatly appreciated. Don’t forget, I post teasers and regular updates in my facebook group.

<3 Jay Marie

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Finally Back At It

Hey, everyone! Its been a few months since my last update and I’ve got some good news! The bar exam has finally come and gone and I’m happy to say that it went a lot better this time around. I feel much more confident about my results, which will hopefully be here in mid May. With that being said, I can now finally immerse myself back into my writing world, and I am ready to dive in head first! The ending is calling me so I will working on Stand as often as I can. My hope is to have it out by the end of 2022, but as per usual, no promises. I’ve already posted a few teasers in my readers group on Facebook, so if your chops are drooling for a taste, you might want to check it out ;)

Stay tuned for more updates! And thank you again for your patience and support!

<3 Jay Marie

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The Latest

Hello, lovelies!

I hope everyone had a good holiday this year. I finally got to visit my family in Canada for the first time in almost two years so it was really exciting for me.

Anyway, I thought I’d give everyone an update with what’s going on with the series. The new version of Stolen is out and available. It took a while for Amazon to get with the program so I was emailing the file directly to some of readers’ kindles. But the ebook and paperback are now available on Amazon and on all my other platforms. I hope you all like it!

Now onto Stand. I am happy to report that I finally reached the peak inspiration that I needed to really kick my writing into gear. Over Thanksgiving weekend, I finally had a breakthrough moment that allowed me to plan out a significant chunk of the book that I was really struggling with. And now that I have that figured out, I’m inspired to write, and so that’s what I’ve been doing. I’ve been able to add two new full chapters which is a lot for me since, for the longest time, I could barely get a sentence out. I’ve also been able to figure out the timeline and worked out some plot hole kinks I was dealing with. I’m still nowhere near finished and not even close to determining a release day, but the fact that I am finally inspired to write gives me hope that the end is finally near.

As always, your patience and support is incredibly appreciated. If you haven’t seen, the first chapter of Stand has been posted on this site and I will be posting teasers in my Facebook readers group throughout my writing process. Much love!

<3 Jay Marie

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Update on Stolen

Hi, everyone! I just wanted to leave a little update with what’s new and what I’ve been working on. Some of you may already be aware that while I was working on Stand, I found it difficult to find inspiration, so I turned back to my original book and reread Stolen, hoping to rekindle that spark. But while I was reading, I couldn’t help but notice how my writing had changed over time, and I found myself wanting to make corrections and revisions that I thought would actually improve the original story. And then suddenly I was inspired to write new scenes and add more dialogue that I felt would enhance the depth of my characters. And I think it came out beautifully. So essentially, I have re-written Stolen, added five new chapters, about 50 pages, and several new scenes that will hopefully leave you just as captivated as the first version did.

With the Beta readers finishing up their review, I thought now would be a good time to let everyone know that the new version of Stolen should be available in the next two weeks. Depending on where you purchased/downloaded the ebook, you should receive a notification that a new version is available for upload at no charge to you. The update will be completely free. However, if you purchased a paperback, unfortunately, that can not be replaced. However, the old paperback version will become memorabilia of my original debut novel, so it will still hold value as you will not be able to purchase this version anywhere else ever again. So, if you would like to purchase that original paperback before I replace it, now is the time.
Thank you to everyone for your patience while I take this inspiration and apply it to the final conclusion of the Stronger Series. I have been struggling with Stand for the majority of the year, but I will be doubling my efforts to bring you the masterpiece you all deserve. I can only hope that I deliver. With that being said, I hope you all will enjoy the new version of Stolen when it becomes available! I will announce it’s release as soon as I finish with the final edits from my amazing Betas.

Much love! ❤

Jay

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Long Time Coming Update

So this summer, I finally graduated from law school and took the Michigan Bar Exam. I took about 3 months off of my normal day job as a paralegal to focus only on studying for the bar exam. I think it went well, but I won’t know my results until the end of October, early November. It’s been an incredibly stressful summer for me since my sleep schedule was completely thrown off, I didn’t eat much, and I became a bit of a social recluse, but I’m glad its finally over and I can move on and get back to the things I truly enjoy.

The first update I have is about Stolen. I decided like 6 months ago that I wanted to rewrite it. I was having a hard time finding inspiration to write Stand so I went back to the very beginning and started reading the first book. But while I was reading I noticed how my writing has changed over time and I started to find inspiration in writing new scenes for the first book. I ended up writing them to see where they could go and they were a lot of fun to write, and so I’ve decided to include them in the new version of Stolen I’ll be publishing in the near future. My editor has already sent back her revisions so I’m just going through those right now. Once I approve the final draft I will be contacting my formatter to get it formatted and then I will begin the process of beta reading and then I will resubmit it to Amazon and Smashwords. If you already have the original e-version of Stolen then that version should either automatically update or you should receive a notification from where you purchased it to let you know a new version is available for download. Updating the new version should not cost you any money. Unfortunately, the same can not be said for the paperback since those can not be revised in the same way. So you will need to purchase a new paperback if that’s the version you prefer.

My second update relates to the final book in the series, Stand. I am currently working on the conclusion and have already posted the first chapter on this site under Stand’s page. I do not have a release date for it yet since I’m still very early in the process, but I’m hoping to have it out by the end of next year. I know everyone is eager for the final conclusion of the series, and believe me, I am eager to finish it, but I don’t want to rush my process. Rushing will just lead to a bad book and I want to finish strong for you guys. I promise your patience will pay off.

My last update is about me personally. My mental health has taken a serious nose dive this year. I’ve been struggling with depression, anxiety, OCD, insomnia, and constant exhaustion. This year has really taken its toll on me, but I am hoping that now that the stress of law school and the bar exam is over, I can get back to a normal, less stressful life. With that being said, please continue to be patient with me. I am only human, still have my day job as a paralegal (hopefully as an associate attorney soon), and writing is a hobby I enjoy on the side. I do the absolute best I can to write what I know you guys will love, but I won’t jeopardize my passion for writing by turning it into another job to appease the impatience of others. Its got to come from my heart, so I hope you guys understand.

I hope everyone is staying safe and healthy out there. I will update this blog as more significant updates come into play. If you want to keep in touch with me you can always find me on my Facebook group where I post more updates, teasers, and games for prizes. https://www.facebook.com/groups/142059833103253

Much love!

<3 Jay Marie

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Update Coming Soon

The purpose of literature is to turn blood into ink.
— T.S. Eliot

Working out some kinks on my website to provide more updates. Stand will likely be released by the end of next year. More detailed updates soon to come.

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